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April 4th, 2012

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I found this picture of Dinkytown and it made me miss home SO MUCH. I didn’t realize how hard it would be to give up my last semester at college, because I was too caught up in the excitement of moving… Obviously, I don’t regret this move one bit, but there are definitely times I wish I could just be a college student again and be with all my best friends (who I miss like CRAZY right now). I am hoping to go home in three weeks to press the refresh button on my life…and BOY do I need it… It’s a four letter word, but it ALWAYS heals…HOME.

There is something about Minnesota that makes me feel so safe and happy. Even the smell of the sweet spring/summer…there is no other place that matches it. CANT WAIT.

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March 12th 2012

SO. I’ve been running around like a chicken with my head chopped off going from auditions to auditions, and although at times it gets hard to manage my time and energy…I LIVE FOR IT. I did an audition for this show called NoHo Idol, and it just reminded me exactly why I LOVE singing…

Plain and simple, it’s because of the feeling I get before, during, and after I am belting out a song. I feel like I am on a cloud when I am intensely into a song, and I am feeling every beat, word, and note. It makes me laugh so much when I think about how much of a chicken I was to sing in front of people for all my life… If I really have loved music and performing for all my life, why did I hide away for so long? I think I was too concerned with what other people would think of my voice and style, so I kept it under wraps and to myself… I try not to ever use the word ~~REGRET~~, so I am going to say that I don’t necessarily ~~REGRET~~ not singing earlier in my life, because I believe everything happens for a reason. No matter what it is, everything happens a certain way or order, because one small thing domino effects into the next. Maybe I am able to finally be confident with myself and embrace my singing style now and LET IT ALL OUT, because I couldn’t before?

I got on that stage, and the two guys in charge of the castings asked me what song I was going to sing…I said either Last Name by CU or If I Aint Got You by AK… they both looked at each other, then looked at me and said, “…those are two VERY ambitious songs…” and I just said, “I knowwww…” They were totally giving me that look like…”Who does this little girl think she is…thinking she can just come up in here and sing these two amazing songs and do it like they do?” HELL NAWWW. So they let me get up on the stage, hand me the mic, and the instrumentals to Last Name begin…(the chose that one and I KNOW I got that one, so I was ready to show them what was up)…within the first couple of notes I sang, they both looked at each other, and I just got this huge rush of confidence…and they let me sing the whole song…which was in a way bad, because they usually never let you sing past the first verse and chorus…and I don’t really know all the words to the last verse…woop. So yeah, I made it up…ANYWAY. They said they were really surprised that “THAT voice came out of THAT (pointing at my small asian body)…seriously. BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD.

I feel like I have been breaking the promises I made to myself when I first got out here. I don’t EVER want to be someone who stops appreciating the small things in life and always wants MORE. I believe God has a funny way of teaching lessons to people individually. They say bad things happen in 3’s… So lets just say I had my three bad mishaps, and I started thinking to myself, “What the heck. I am always so lucky in situations…I feel like I am being picked on…SO MANY BAD THINGS NEVER HAPPEN TO ME ALL AT ONCE. THEY’RE USUALLY SPACED OUT!!!!” It was seriously so bizzare.

1. Got into a car accident… ruined my car (The one that my dad JUST drove out to me all the way from home).

2. While I am driving to an audition (with the messed up car) the hood flies up and shatters the windshield (while I’m on LA highways…yeah. Picture that).

3. I am in Hermosa Beach having a blast…UNTIL… I realize I have no idea where my rental car keys are… Not only would they have had to tow the car (on a Sunday), but then we would have to deal with the replacement key fees on top of the towing… and waste away a gorgeous afternoon…

One of my friends asked me, “What have you done that your karma is so bad right now?!”…as funny as it sounds, that really got to me. Seriously. I thought long and hard, and I realized that my outlook on life lately has been ALL WRONG. I have been totally breaking my personal promises, and being that person that always wants MORE and is never satisfied or things are never good enough. I can’t live life that way, because it really is so true… It’s not when I am in a good mood that I am thankful for things, it’s when I am thankful that I am the most happy. When I get in that appreciative mind set, my mood instantly changes. Of course, when something great happens to me, it makes me appreciate my life…but, all in all, I am most happy when I really think hard about how wonderful and blessed I am.

What do I appreciate?

My wonderful family. Period. From my amazing cousins, parents, brother, aunts, uncles, to grandparents…they are all so supportive and ALWAYS lift me up when I am down. They all have such high hopes for me, which motivates me to make them proud…and it’s so nice knowing that they really believe in me, and they always will.
My situation. Having the opportunity to live out in California and pursue my dreams? Not many people get to drop whatever they are doing and go do this. I MUST PROMISE TO BE THANKFUL EVERYDAY FOR THIS OPPORTUNITY, and NEVER FORGET IT. I have to remember the true reason why I am here, and be thankful for all the people that have been pushing me along the way. So, I gotta work hard and STAY HUMBLE through it all.
GOD. My relationship with him, the ability he has to tell me what’s up, the plain and simple fact that I can turn to him no matter what and KNOW everything will be alright. If I draw near to him, he will draw near to me as well… He will never leave my side, and I can always count on him for ANYTHING and EVERYTHING…that support and guidance is more than enough to help me appreciate my faith and my life.
People who make me happy to be alive. Recently, I have been having run ins with old friends, and NEW…and it’s the social interaction that makes me happy to be living. I swear I get caught up in the most random situations sometimes, but it always turns out to be the best time EVER. Meeting people out here that are pursuing the exact same thing is AMAZING. Being able to relate with someone on that level, is SO COMFORTING. No judgement. Just their genuine support creates a sense of acceptability and refreshes my level of ability to this. If you can make me laugh to the point of tears…You are a keeper :)
MOMENTS. Again, I have been in some random A$$ moments lately, but they create these memories that I can think back on and make me smile…even just sitting out on the beach in California makes me appreciate my life. Just looking around thinking, “THIS DOESN’T EVEN LOOK REAL IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL.”
SECURITY. Self explanatory, but this is a huge one… in every way, shape, and form…I am so blessed to have this.

Obviously, I have more…but this is what I am most thankful for now…

What’s got YOU cheesin????

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